There are many people trying to define the "world" and "society". Those critics are often opposed by somebody else. This is because, there is no "real" meaning to describe world, environment and facts surrounding us. Although everything has its own properties, they need to be defined. Good example of this is that we know what lighter does but we call and use it differently depends on our languages and cultures. Speaking of which, languages and cultures themselves are made. They are not real to the world like other visible objects.
We defined what is good and bad long ago. But do you ever think that what absolutely telling good apart of bad lies within each person. Each person will judge each act differently based on their own experiences and morals.[Morals-> aka, what they believe -> what they want to believe] Everyone was raised differently and had variety of experiences. Therefore, you cannot condemn them wrong just because you or most of people think so. What is everyone in your country believes in something that is technically wrong, will you follow or oppose? In fact, no one will oppose if you say some thing like "1+1=2". [Mathematically speaking: something that has truth value.] The case you will encounter the most is the ideal of politic, religion, cultures and believes. To some people, this topics is very sensitive, trying to convey them away from their believes is like tempting them to come and get you. Seriously, there is no real answer to these topics, right nor wrong.
Even with simple question like "Is every life equal?" is very hard to answer. To sacrifice 1 for 1,000 or to let prisoners die to save a brilliant scientist, is it worth? The answer may vary but I will say mine here. Life in my perspective is not equal, Life of ones I love and normal human are not at all equal. If I can only choose one then I will let the one that is more important to me live and let the other one dies. It may seem to be harsh but I believe that you will choose your family over one unknown man after all.
The above example can be applied to more serious issues like religion and politic. You may think that what you believe in is true because you think so or everyone near you think so and demonstrate it to you since you were young. It is fine to do so but wrong if you are trying to force other people to believe in what you believe. Some people that I know change what they believe to something else when encountered with some events which strong enough to make their faith collapsed. Of course, the severity of events enough to collapse the faith is proportional to strength of their believes.
I can assure you that there is no right and wrong in this kind of issues. You can believe in whatever you choose but you have no right to say that what other believe is wrong or stupid. There are so many believes in this world and they need to be coexisted in order to create diversity in perspectives. This thing is natural.
In conclusion, we see the world as we would like to see it not as it is. Some may think that life is boring, society is bad, chaotic and dying while many think of that life is beautiful and this world give them hope. "You will feel pain if and only if you think that yourself is in pain". The choice of world's perspective exclusively depends on you.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Me and My Life
Human nature or so called "Philosophy of Life" changes over courses of time. Mine is no exception. My friends from primary school would not think that one day I will be what I am today. My ideas, habits and perspectives have changed entirely, especially in the last 4 years.
When I was young, I was raised in very well manner. So well that I don't know how to lie and lack of confidence. Only one question remains in my mind all the time since the day my great grandmother died, why we have to born and die?. In my early school life, I realized that we cannot speak out our mind in public or else we cannot blend ourselves in society otherwise. I first encountered deceit and humiliation in primary school. Since then I decided to separate myself from society. Staying only with small group of friends and playing video games. Watching animation and video games made me feel good with the dream world they created. They will only make you happy, no fake, no hurt and give you cinfidence. One of my friends vowed to love only 2D animation girl in his life.[Nowadays this type of people are called "Otaku"] It is very funny if I looked at it now. I hate school, I will go back home as soon as possible. I study only because my parents will let me play games only if my grade is good. Simply say, I studied to play games. Come to think of it, it looks like how most of people works: Work->money->spending/travel.
I have to part with my friends when I go to secondary school. With more stress and worse environment. Only playing games is not enough. I don't like sports and hate musics. Therefore, I have to find something to do to release my build-up stress. Then I begin to steal. I was part of the shop lifting gang. Not because I want stuffs, but stealing is exciting and it helps release my stress. I actually return to secretly returned my steal to the shop. I did it as far as I used to be a planner for the group. Destroying objects like tables, chairs, windows and doorknobs also make my heart felt lighter. Hurting animals and sometimes killing them, watching them die is the other way to enjoyed myself. At that time, I already leanned to cheat, lie and pretend to be a good boy with no problem.
Not so long after that I encountered with biggest obstacles in my life. I failed in the thing that I should be best - study. I tried to keep it a secret from everyone. I felt that I have no value at all as a human being. I wondered why human have to be borned and made suffer. Why we have to try living if we will finally die one day. While I was running away from the fact, myself and the world, I met one man. He is very good at art of seduction, he can blend himself very well in society. He has taught me many things including my favorite "Eventhough they know, People love to be lied". But as they say, there is no secret in the world, mine was exposed. I received warm welcome instead of punishment which not make me feel good at all. I would rather take punishment rather than having to carry guilt over my shoulder.
My new life then started, I know so many friends and enimies. I understand that these two categories can be interchanged. I understand that people sometimes have to lie or admit lies themselves. Sometimes you have to hurt other persons and you may be hurt by others. This is simple rule. I have changed a lot, my old friend could not imagine me as myself now for sure. [My new friends say that I have confidence. I feel funny every time considering it when I was a child] I have to thank all my friends all these years that changed me. I don't think before that I will have friends that can share everything in my mind with. Without them I would not dare hope.
When I was young, I was raised in very well manner. So well that I don't know how to lie and lack of confidence. Only one question remains in my mind all the time since the day my great grandmother died, why we have to born and die?. In my early school life, I realized that we cannot speak out our mind in public or else we cannot blend ourselves in society otherwise. I first encountered deceit and humiliation in primary school. Since then I decided to separate myself from society. Staying only with small group of friends and playing video games. Watching animation and video games made me feel good with the dream world they created. They will only make you happy, no fake, no hurt and give you cinfidence. One of my friends vowed to love only 2D animation girl in his life.[Nowadays this type of people are called "Otaku"] It is very funny if I looked at it now. I hate school, I will go back home as soon as possible. I study only because my parents will let me play games only if my grade is good. Simply say, I studied to play games. Come to think of it, it looks like how most of people works: Work->money->spending/travel.
I have to part with my friends when I go to secondary school. With more stress and worse environment. Only playing games is not enough. I don't like sports and hate musics. Therefore, I have to find something to do to release my build-up stress. Then I begin to steal. I was part of the shop lifting gang. Not because I want stuffs, but stealing is exciting and it helps release my stress. I actually return to secretly returned my steal to the shop. I did it as far as I used to be a planner for the group. Destroying objects like tables, chairs, windows and doorknobs also make my heart felt lighter. Hurting animals and sometimes killing them, watching them die is the other way to enjoyed myself. At that time, I already leanned to cheat, lie and pretend to be a good boy with no problem.
Not so long after that I encountered with biggest obstacles in my life. I failed in the thing that I should be best - study. I tried to keep it a secret from everyone. I felt that I have no value at all as a human being. I wondered why human have to be borned and made suffer. Why we have to try living if we will finally die one day. While I was running away from the fact, myself and the world, I met one man. He is very good at art of seduction, he can blend himself very well in society. He has taught me many things including my favorite "Eventhough they know, People love to be lied". But as they say, there is no secret in the world, mine was exposed. I received warm welcome instead of punishment which not make me feel good at all. I would rather take punishment rather than having to carry guilt over my shoulder.
My new life then started, I know so many friends and enimies. I understand that these two categories can be interchanged. I understand that people sometimes have to lie or admit lies themselves. Sometimes you have to hurt other persons and you may be hurt by others. This is simple rule. I have changed a lot, my old friend could not imagine me as myself now for sure. [My new friends say that I have confidence. I feel funny every time considering it when I was a child] I have to thank all my friends all these years that changed me. I don't think before that I will have friends that can share everything in my mind with. Without them I would not dare hope.
Me and My Family(2)
I cannot give much detail about how my grandfather trying to find his father dues to the lack of information. I would have to ask him and others in more detail first. After I gained more knowledge and got more evidences in this issues I will compose a short story out of it (^^). The thing I can tell now is that he is a virtue man that value his honor the most. He refused to stayed or changed his family name back to get heritage from his real father. In the other hand, he chose to stay in Phuket with his mom and his new dad. He told me that although he is not his real father, he looked after my grandfather as his own son all the time. "He did not give life, yet give him the chance to live." - My grandfather's word.
My grandfather life in Phuket is not beautiful though. His(Our/My) family at that time is very poor. He has to quit studying and started working . He married my grandmother at young age and has 5 children. Each of them has their own tales to be told but I will save that for later.[My laziness :P]
The disaster struck when there was anti "Ang Yee"[อั้งยี่] event in Thailand. This event is a result of USA's communist containment policy. Thai government reacted to this policy by destroying almost every books and scriptures written in Chinese since most of the people at that time believed that China is the origin of communism. My great grandfather[2]'s younger brother was announced to be Ang Yee and must be sent to jail. My great grandfather[2] tried to help his brother by confessing that he is Ang Yee himself. As a result, he was sent straight to jail in Bangkok while his brother fled to Pinang, Malasia. [Later, I had chance to meet him and his decendants before he passed away] The fact that my great grandfather[2] was jailed affected my family alot. My great grand mother, my grandfather and my grand mother had to work a lot harder to attain their living. Even after the Ang Yee revolution in Phuket was subsided and my great grandfather[2] was released, everything is not gonna be the same again. He got diseased from the dirty jail and passed away in few years after that... I never saw him in person.
Besides all the facts stated, my grandfather tries very hard to work for his family. Although he was seriously injured his back-bone while working, he could get pass through it with the help of his friends and supervisers. [His straight forward nature have made him popular to the locals there] Finally, he can support all his children to graduate university level. After that, my family's economy was growing gradually better until like what we have today. [Not rich as Bill Gates but can get any reasonable things if needed]
Here I conclude the story of my family, my root and my origin. There are still many exciting things not told here though such as my aunt took part in the 16 October incidence in Thailand. But again, that is another story.
[End]
My grandfather life in Phuket is not beautiful though. His(Our/My) family at that time is very poor. He has to quit studying and started working . He married my grandmother at young age and has 5 children. Each of them has their own tales to be told but I will save that for later.[My laziness :P]
The disaster struck when there was anti "Ang Yee"[อั้งยี่] event in Thailand. This event is a result of USA's communist containment policy. Thai government reacted to this policy by destroying almost every books and scriptures written in Chinese since most of the people at that time believed that China is the origin of communism. My great grandfather[2]'s younger brother was announced to be Ang Yee and must be sent to jail. My great grandfather[2] tried to help his brother by confessing that he is Ang Yee himself. As a result, he was sent straight to jail in Bangkok while his brother fled to Pinang, Malasia. [Later, I had chance to meet him and his decendants before he passed away] The fact that my great grandfather[2] was jailed affected my family alot. My great grand mother, my grandfather and my grand mother had to work a lot harder to attain their living. Even after the Ang Yee revolution in Phuket was subsided and my great grandfather[2] was released, everything is not gonna be the same again. He got diseased from the dirty jail and passed away in few years after that... I never saw him in person.
Besides all the facts stated, my grandfather tries very hard to work for his family. Although he was seriously injured his back-bone while working, he could get pass through it with the help of his friends and supervisers. [His straight forward nature have made him popular to the locals there] Finally, he can support all his children to graduate university level. After that, my family's economy was growing gradually better until like what we have today. [Not rich as Bill Gates but can get any reasonable things if needed]
Here I conclude the story of my family, my root and my origin. There are still many exciting things not told here though such as my aunt took part in the 16 October incidence in Thailand. But again, that is another story.
[End]
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Me and My Family(1)
(*This post contains Thai specific places and names)
If there were no electricity, there wouldn't be light bulb. Likewise, if there were no root of my family, there wouldn't be me today. [Unless, you use something else instead of electricity for light bulb] Therefore, I would like to record parts of their tales here.
From what I can trace, my great grandfather is the bloodline of Ranong Provincial Governor.At that time this position succeeded through family not elected or given by central government like today. [Kind of like European nobility position such as baron or count] My great grandmother is a Chinese commoner living in Ranong province. They met and married. It seems to be a fairytale life for her but the truth is cruel. My great grandfather's family wished him to marry girl in higher position and made my great grandmother a concubine instead. With honor, She decided to flee... to Phuket.
Unlike nowadays, Phuket and Ranong at that time are treated as important provinces due to their ore productibility. [Now Phuket is famous for its tourist attraction] There, she remarried with other Chinese guy, who I will refer to him as my great grandfather[2], with Chinese family name "Ong" .[อ๋อง] My great grandmother did not come to Phuket alone, she brought a new born child with her from Ranong. Of course, he later became my grandfather.
My grandfather was raised without knowing who his real father is. But there is no secret in this world. He knew about his real father when he was teenager. Then, the epic was made, he ran away from home to Ranong by himself with little information he had. But this tales will be told the other time :).
[To be continue]
If there were no electricity, there wouldn't be light bulb. Likewise, if there were no root of my family, there wouldn't be me today. [Unless, you use something else instead of electricity for light bulb] Therefore, I would like to record parts of their tales here.
From what I can trace, my great grandfather is the bloodline of Ranong Provincial Governor.At that time this position succeeded through family not elected or given by central government like today. [Kind of like European nobility position such as baron or count] My great grandmother is a Chinese commoner living in Ranong province. They met and married. It seems to be a fairytale life for her but the truth is cruel. My great grandfather's family wished him to marry girl in higher position and made my great grandmother a concubine instead. With honor, She decided to flee... to Phuket.
Unlike nowadays, Phuket and Ranong at that time are treated as important provinces due to their ore productibility. [Now Phuket is famous for its tourist attraction] There, she remarried with other Chinese guy, who I will refer to him as my great grandfather[2], with Chinese family name "Ong" .[อ๋อง] My great grandmother did not come to Phuket alone, she brought a new born child with her from Ranong. Of course, he later became my grandfather.
My grandfather was raised without knowing who his real father is. But there is no secret in this world. He knew about his real father when he was teenager. Then, the epic was made, he ran away from home to Ranong by himself with little information he had. But this tales will be told the other time :).
[To be continue]
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Blog Starts
This is the first debut of my blog. So, I don't want to write any serious fact here plus I am lazy right now :P. so I will just want to tell some fun facts here to make a good start.
First, I wish to introduce my old friend's website (He is still my friend, just haven't meet him for a long time). www.cosholic.com, Photo gallery for some Thai cosplayers. Have quite bunch of good pics, especially if you like girls' photo(hic!).
Next, for a drama watchers, I'd recommend d-addict website. It contains, if not all, collection of drama's information (Mostly Japanese and Korean drama). Searching through its' web board will bring you to drama translation and torre_t (^o^).
For Anime watcher, I would recommend Hongfire web board. Can find new anime there unless you want to use good old Tokyo Toshokan.
Seriously, I encourage everyone to support original product. But well, it may take forever to localize and not all people is patient enough.
Last but not least, for ones who are looking for games, I would recommend you trying card games and board games. You can see Board Game Geek for all board games' info. For card games, I would recommend you to try Magic the Gathering (MTG) which recognized as best card games of all time.
I would love to recommend some online game but I haven't play game other that DoTa for quite sometimes. Personally, I prefer online games over offline ones with the exception of RPG games.
First, I wish to introduce my old friend's website (He is still my friend, just haven't meet him for a long time). www.cosholic.com, Photo gallery for some Thai cosplayers. Have quite bunch of good pics, especially if you like girls' photo(hic!).
Next, for a drama watchers, I'd recommend d-addict website. It contains, if not all, collection of drama's information (Mostly Japanese and Korean drama). Searching through its' web board will bring you to drama translation and torre_t (^o^).
For Anime watcher, I would recommend Hongfire web board. Can find new anime there unless you want to use good old Tokyo Toshokan.
Seriously, I encourage everyone to support original product. But well, it may take forever to localize and not all people is patient enough.
Last but not least, for ones who are looking for games, I would recommend you trying card games and board games. You can see Board Game Geek for all board games' info. For card games, I would recommend you to try Magic the Gathering (MTG) which recognized as best card games of all time.
I would love to recommend some online game but I haven't play game other that DoTa for quite sometimes. Personally, I prefer online games over offline ones with the exception of RPG games.
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